Not in the "wah I'm sad" sense but in the "eh I'm just gonna sit inside and stare at the wall today".

Had or have some sort of liver problem. Doctors don't know what caused it yet. Dad thinks they were caused by the drugs I take (which is very unlikely) and made me flush them after searching my room. He's demanding that I go to counseling for substance abuse. Thought my anxiety meds were working but can still barely socialize with new people. Interferes with my work, which requires me to deal with customers. Don't see hardly any of my friends because I don't wanna start smoking again. Haven't kept in touch with anyone really. Girl seems to have lost interest in me. Keep fucking up interpersonal relationships. Don't want to study computer science in school anymore. Veterinary opiates I found in the house are looking pretty good but I don't want to take anything because of my liver. Stopped working out.

I don't like where my life is heading but don't know what to change besides everything.